Day Six/Day Four.

I feel like I have that wrong... but let's go with that for now.

Last night's nightmare involved white bread. Eating it. Remembering I was on this meal replacement program and thinking 'Oh fuck, now I have to go BACK TO THE START.'  I did end up having a few mouthfuls of peanut butter in the middle of the night... suspect that's more to do with my 'monthly' need for extra protein and iron than anything. I had been eyeballing the vege mince earlier that day.

It's been a little tough but it IS getting easier. I got a bit 'grungry' after having to go to two shops for some vege protien and vegetables... so it's not perfect. Not by a long shot. Being in a shop full of food is not helpful. Esspically when I have a perfect memory of how each thing IN those shops tastes... I can literally recall any and every taste/texture/smell of food I've eaten.

And right now I can smell toasted rasin bread.

So while the hunger is muted... it's still there. And my sense of smell seems to be heightened now.

Not sure if I really can face leaving the house again, honestly, not with this heightened sense of smell. Not even to be social. Urgh. Gonna grumble and be depressed around this house all day instead. Be hormonal and cranky. Drink tons of water. Try to not stress myself out over problems and issues and pressure and jobs and housing and money and...

Nope, nope, nope. Not happening.