I am hungry. Hungry. Hungry.
My belly thinks so. My brain thinks so. My mouth DEFINITELY thinks so. In fact I'm feeling the hunger in my mouth most of all- it wants to crunch into something! Grilled tomato and cheese. Apple. Apple grated into a sandwich. Black rice sushi. Last night I was eyeballing a box of beauty samples and wishing it was a box of high quality creamy chocolate. Assorted. Mmm.
It's funny because some days I'll be hungry for hours without bothering to cook... and it isn't an issue. But right now because I know I can't... I MUST HAVE. Urgh.
Only twenty minutes till the next shake.
I got my monthies last night, first time in about four months, which is excellent timing- I was about to start a medication to force it to start- so that's good news. Probably also explains why I'm craving stuff.
Tried to garden away the hunger. After all... it was sunny outside. Why not? It kind of worked- I got a third garden bed dug up, apple tree trimmed away from the cow and horse, and put an edge on one part of the first bed- but I gave up when it started to hail. Yeah. Fifteen minutes later it started to hail. Now half an hour LATER the sun is back out.
Gah. There's so many reasons to not eat. My brain knows this. But the physical senses and cravings are the ones that can't quite seem to understand the brain. One of the rapid loss side effects seems to be a headache as well. But I've been finding mineral water helps with the 'mouth cravings'.
The competition should be motivating... it should be!... but right now it's hard enough to just get to 2pm without eating.
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